Distressed by afternoon,
A few hours more
And another day has passed, serving those fools.
They shamelessly feed off my fear
To speak the final word and take back what I hold dear.
Fuck their numbers! Fuck their synthetic smiles!
Those words never came.
I sought comfort from where it was banned
And got caught in a maze of secrecy so grand.
My head spins with theories and suspicion,
But my body collects reward.
Her eyes spoke to me with lust,
Tempting, yet loaded with danger.
Loneliness defeated reason, and I went down.
It's too easy to slip away,
When no one sees to redeem you.
I tried, I fought,
But in the end I left behind my sole source of joy.
Fuck their mission! There's limits to my patience!
Those words never came.
Looking back, I regret my poor resolve.
What did I miss and what did I gain?
I tossed integrity for narrow-minded greed
And earned a ticket to a dead-end ride to bliss.
Those eyes clouded with tears,
I turned down her heartfelt misery.
Selfishness defeated emotion, and I survived.