I never thought I'd be so mean
Never thought I'd be alone at nineteen
All the sounds are in my head again, head again
And all the thoughts are running through my brain
And out the door
Rather be dumb than sane
Rather be numb than in pain
But you can see all the things I'm going through
Rather be dumb than sane
Rather be numb than in pain
But you can see all the shit I'm going through
No no no, no no no
I hide my pain inside
No no no, no no no
I bleed to feel alive
Oh oh oh, oh oh oh
I am dead inside makes it hard to survive
No, you can't find my reasons
No, you can't find my pain
We all got lost in Jesus
But he can't take away my pain
I'm looking for something more
So take me away, from out the door
Now I'm looking for you outside to say
No no no, no no no
I hide my pain inside
No no no, no no no
I bleed to feel alive
Oh oh oh, oh oh oh
I am dead inside makes it hard to survive
No I can't take it
All of these memories
I can't fake it
I'm trying but I am dying
I just want to
Just be myself
I have tried to
But now I am someone else
No no no, no no no
So please be kind
No no no, no no no
I'm losing my mind
No no no, no no no
I'm really not fine
Oh no
I'm really not
We live in an age where sex and horror are Gods
We live in an age where all our bodies are flawed
We live in an age where sex and horror are Gods
We live in an age
We live in an age
We live in an age where sex and horror are Gods
We live in an age where all our bodies are flawed
We live in an age where sex and horror are Gods
Are Gods
No I can't take it
All of these memories
I can't fake it
I'm trying but I am dying
I just want to
Just be myself
I have tried to
But now I am someone else