I used to listen to my life,
I was so put together,
I chose what I wanted to be
In that age of chasing sand,
The age of believing in everything.
But I couldn't save you,
I couldn't save
What was taken away,
And I'm still singing,
And you still can't stay…
'You loved life',
And those words have lasted…
I just wish I would have had
Ears for more than what you said
Cuz I still feel the lack
long after…
Such a light body,
Such a quiet gait
Leaving behind the weight of the world.
And I'll always think
It was too early
To lose your shine,
I guess the means that ends us means nothing,
I just hope it's the peace
We all need,
Cuz I could love and drown
In your goddamn smile lines,
But I think I burnt up
Watching you rallying to stay alive,
And I guess that's fine.
It seems we all get sick,
We all die
In some no name hospitals
With the same colored walls,
And I guess that's fine,
But I want to swallow,
I want to stomache,
I want to live!..
It's been a rough while
And some days are worse than others,
There's no proper way to feel,
No mirth, no levity,
No amazing grace,
Just a flame on a lake
Floating away,
I can't let you lay,
I want you to know,
I'm learning patience
Against my will,
I want you to know,
I'll get by,
Always barely scraping
With just a hunger,
With just a heart apart…
It's a hell of a thing…
It's a hell of a thing…