Through rolling hills
And many miles of blood
We slept in the rain, falling
Marched through the mud.
And you were not
Like anyone I'd known.
You spoke with impunity,
Had nothing to atone.
In quiet evenings
You told me what you thought about:
Servants and kings and how
Everyone is bought,
And that no one's hands
Are bloodier than God's,
And I won't be judged
For doing as I ought.
It's hard to say
Just when I fell in love.
There was no epiphany,
No light from above.
But you'd become
My candle in the dark,
And all through the hell you were
A shield across my heart.
When all was fire
And the weather out for blood,
And the boys, still too young to drink,
Were drownin' in the flood.
I'd hear you laughing
It was like coming up for air.
And I'd laugh with you,
Pretending not to care.
Not many years have passed
Since the last time I saw you.
When I kissed you on the mouth
You walked away.
I knew it would be too much,
I knew that it would scare you.
But I couldn't find the proper words
For what I had to say.
But I don't regret a thing.